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10:17am 07/10/2005
  So many things I want to say. But all deal with consequences.

What a quandary I'm in...

It's at sometimes my words don't even make a dent. But yet at times I might as well be holding a gun to someones head that they have that effect.

I was reading someones Live journal last night. Another one of those People I hurt. Long ago.

And still to this day are almost disgusted/repulsed by me. Yet when I came near them. They said nothing.

It's always fun while it lasts. Hurts when it ends. And lingers when it's gone.


My question to me is WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING RIGHT IN THE BEGINING!?!?!

I already know what I'm doing wrong in the End.


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There's no one left. They are all gone. any of them my age are gone.


* Arg / sigh *


I dont feel like Bars cause that's not the way I work.
Hell no to the People at work they're too weird.

Now I know damn well I can't save "I give up."

I am that kind of person who thinks there is that ONE person out there.
I guess I'm just milling around...

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I want a handgrenade. no make that 2. Just in case the first one doesn't do it.
 
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03:55am 21/09/2005
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12:24pm 19/09/2005
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Beach House Party   
02:01am 12/09/2005
  Well kiddies.

Who's ready for some unadulterated Teenage fun?

Sex drugs drinking. Sex. Drinking.. and... ummmm CLOWNS!!!

I have the Beachhouse to my self for the weekend I just need to get something organized by like midweek.



The idea is to leave Friday afternoon, Get there then come home Sunday afternoon.

The trip takes near 2 hours and a quarter tank of gas.

(This is driving by Phil standards mind you...)

I have directions. they are pretty simple.
You can try to follow as well.

-Get Over Bay Bridge
-50 East
-404 East to Denton
(Now for the shortcut I take) - South 113
-Left at Exxon / Mc Donalds 404
-George Town Circle
-East on 404
-Then you finally hit Route 1

Or you can map quest it and take the Longer (But EASier) way For people who haven't been there.


The other Car can Park in Spaces 3 and 5 Since those people aren't there.


-=Requirements=-


Bring what you need to survive. Food Clothing Accessories MONEY.
Bring Liquor (And other stuff .. since you people, like that stuff...)

ummmm ummmm

Leave a reply or IM me


We'll see how things go.
 
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Been gone.   
07:22pm 07/09/2005
 
mood: Tired
Parental Units went out of town for a week +

I stayed at martins house and Partied there for 3 days straight.

My god.

Alot more fun than what I've been having.

Finally started smoking a pipe like I wanted to.

And I got to beat down someones car at the Highschool...


Got a new cell phone. Same old number so you people can start calling me again.

ummmm


Not much else that I really Feel like talkin about.

Old issues dropped. No new Conflicts. Less Bitching. No more Emo. Stuff like that.
 
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11:59pm 01/09/2005
  Something is wrong.



I don't trust nor believe anyone anymore.
 
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06:25pm 01/09/2005
  fine...

Push me over.

I'll just sit here and take it.
 
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05:07am 28/08/2005
 
mood: Eh
People Leaving.
People going to school.
Everyone cept me.
Cause I ain't that cool.

Staying here for a while.
Long until it ends.
I'll catch you all later.
Farewell to all my Friends.
 
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OTAKON   
02:49am 20/08/2005
 
mood: OTAKON
OTAKON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I Got Referred to The Baltimore Fencing Club. While Preforming in a Kendo Stick Match.


Slept through the Melee Tournament(Damn). But won at least 40 - 50 Stock Matches out side of it. With the Puff.
 
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OTAKON   
02:48am 20/08/2005
 
mood: OTAKON
OTAKON
 
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My My My   
05:39am 17/08/2005
 
mood: content
Oh my, Oh my.


You've got it bad now.
An addiction so strong it Pains you.

You'd gladly ditch any other guy to be with me?
Oh my.

Oh my.

It looks for real.
But we both agree.
The people we are.
It's Boredom we fear.

These games that we play.
Of tease and torment.
Are really quite Fun.
So lets keep it rolling, We shall see how it goes.



Oh my, Oh MY






Let the Games Begin.
 
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04:43am 15/08/2005
  Everything all better.

I think.

Not going to say anymore about that cause I don't feel like it.
 
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07:56pm 10/08/2005
  I screamed at an 8-Ball today for lying to me.
The thing said I was going to get out of work before 3 or 4

I mean I asked its nicely the first time. And it said Signs point to Yes, When I asked if we would get out Before then.

Then I asked it again
It said yes Again

THEN

I asked it if it was lying to me

It said no.



Fucker ....

Ya know what Freaked the Fuck outta me?

Early in the morning there was a woman walking down the aisle with s Brown Shirt with Yellow lettering saying " Animal Control "
Thats understandable... West Virginia and all....

But with a Fucking BIG ASS Loaded Magnum Revolver on her hip?
Felt more like West Virginia...

Redneck USA!!!! I was tempted to ask every one if they were related to one another.... But I just decided to work.

ummm

Oh yeah.


They Sell Beer at K mart in West Virginia.

Yeah. It's Directly across from the Cookies. I jumped in on that and Started counting that shit.

Singing 99 Bottles of Beer on the wall to Fuck with People.

:)



Ummm more on that shit later.
 
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LET THE GAMES BEGIN!!!!   
05:10pm 09/08/2005
  Spike TheSlowOne: Shes a dwarf. You're a Jolly Green Giant
Spike TheSlowOne: Jolly ....
DEathBYfryINGPAN: hahahahahahahahahaha
DEathBYfryINGPAN: not so jolly
Spike TheSlowOne: *Ho HO HO*
Spike TheSlowOne: Ho ...
DEathBYfryINGPAN: is that an insult or something
Spike TheSlowOne: ....
DEathBYfryINGPAN: i dunno, im a bit out of it
Spike TheSlowOne: Yeah me too
Spike TheSlowOne: I'm now thinking about Green Beans for some reason
DEathBYfryINGPAN: hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
DEathBYfryINGPAN: thank you phil



Alrighty Today was a long day.

Work starting at 4:00 am. Got home at 4:30. Do the math.

Yes kids. That ='s

ME TIRED!!!



And of course. There's more.

Work Wed. Morning at 4:30 in BEAR, Delaware. 73.78 miles Where the fuck is BEAR in ... Dela ... where?

Are there any Bears in BEAR in DELAWARE!!!!



This is what 1 hour of sleep will do to Phil ...

Ummm Jeanette? YOU'RE INSANE.

Sucks I go for that kinda stuff though.

This could be bad

But this Battle shall be interesting. Let who will break first.

We shall find out if it is possible for a Man To Give A Girl.

Bleu Balls.


I bet I can.

This game shall be fun.





[Marital Status]Martial Arts? jk
[Shoe size]12? I think
[Parents still together]Yessums
[Siblings]Sister 22 yrs Art major
[Pets]Fat ass Furball cat named Snowball
FAVORITES
[Color]Black and Blue, Black and Orange
[Number]13
[Animal] Grizzly Bear
[Drinks] My special Bleu Bombers, MEGA DAQUIRI~~!
[Soda] ROOT BEER! Almost like the real thing... only better
[Book] God damn been a while since I last read
[Flower] A withered rose.
DO YOU
[Color your hair?] I wanna do it again... work wont let me
[Twirl your hair?] I want ponytails
[Have tattoos?] I want a Yin Yang
[Have Piercings?] Some where ...
[Cheat on tests/homework?] Yep
[Drink/Smoke?] Drink? What? This a joke? Wanna stop smoking
[Like roller coasters?] FUCK YEAH!!! *Puke*
[Wish you could live somewhere else?] New York. Deep in the city
[Want more piercings?] No
[Like cleaning?] Uhhh. I like showers?
[Write in cursive or print?] Print. And Badly.
[Own a web cam?] Yes
[Know how to drive?] ... Like a MadMan
[Own a cell phone?] yes
[Ever get off the damn computer?] Gotta stop masterbating sometime...
HAVE U EVER
[Been in a fist fight?] Memories...
[Considered a life of crime?] Yes.
[Considered being a hooker?] *Can't Stop laughing*
[Lied to someone?] I try
[Been in love?] I was mistaken
[Made out with JUST a friend?] I like it ... Male or Female? w/e
[Been in lust?] Constantly
[Used someone] I use everyone. Male and Female. They just don't know it.
[Been used?] Take me I'm yours?
[Been cheated on?] Probably. Wouldn't doubt it
[Kicked someone in the nuts?] Yeah. My self.
[Stolen anything?] ALOOT!!!
[Held a gun] Rifle an A shotgun... I want a shotgun right now...
CURRENTS
[Current clothing] My Fav Boxers and ... ummm
[Current mood] Floaty?
[Current taste] Cotton Candy
[What you currently smell like] Phil.
[Current hair] On my Head
[Current thing I ought to be doing] Sleeping
[Current cd in stereo] Dirty Vegas. Oldie
[Last book you read] Don't remember
[Last movie you saw] Dukes of Hazard
[Last thing you ate] Nothing
[Last person you talked to on the phone] The John Leguizamo Hotline
[Do drugs?] Yes.
[Believe there is life on other planets?] Yes. Uranus
Remember your first love?] N/A
[Still love him/her?] N/A
[Read the newspaper?] Sections about Crime or death
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?] Yah.
[Believe in miracles?] Yes Whitney Houston
[Do well in school?] I don't think I do. But teachers say I'm good.
[Wear hats] Not a hat person. Other than a Beret... Or I try
[Hate yourself?] Yes
[Have an obsession?] Yes.
[Collect anything?] Yes. Money.
[Have a best friend?] Yes. wait. No. I'm all alone in this world
[Close friends?] 16 -17 years an counting mah Brotha!
[Like your handwriting?] I HATE IT HATE HATE HATE
[Care about looks]
LOVE LIFE
[First crush] Christina Monmonier
[First kiss] I kissed alot
[Do you believe in love at first sight?] "Yes I'm certain that it happens all the time." Thank you Beetles!
[Do you believe in "the one?"] Losing faith
[Are you a tease?] YES
[Too shy to make the first move?] I prefer to let them make it. :)
ARE U A
[Daydreamer] Yes
[Bitch/Asshole] MAJOR ASSHOLE. Or at least I Really Really Try
[sarcastic] I can't take it very well.
[Angel] A lil bit o this
[Devil] A lil bit o that
[Shy] Sometimes
[Talkative] Once I get rolling

CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!
 
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02:26am 07/08/2005
 

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I'm addicted to these things!!!
 
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12:15am 02/08/2005
  Ok

Everything thing about car fixed.

All except that annoying noise but that I'll take care of later.


NEW ALPINE KICKS ASS. Does shit my Old Head Unit could never of Dreamed of. It's got a fucking REMOTE! Slightly large but hell, thats so i don't loose it. Cause I tend to forget where things are. So many Gadgets.

and speaking of Gets/jets.

For some reason...

I am now informed the correct spelling for her name is Jeannette lol. Sorry for any mishaps or misunderstandings.

And c'mon Amanda and Jean.. What was that conversation you two were having... from the sounds of it it was either about Bryan or myself... And judging about the last words said in the convo... It makes me question... Why?

Weirdos. >.<


And now some random Pictures from that best night ever.

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Brownie fight. That shit is still on top of my car.


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The Brawn of the Group. Let's give it up for the Big guys!!!


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And me Just standing in front of a Cop Car because he wouldn't let me sit in the Driver seat ... Damn...





And Now for the Only Girl who lasted Through the Setting Night to the Rising sun In Baltimore Harbor. Or wait ... Was she the Only girl there? Either way. She toughed it out with Me Martin Josh and Victor On that nigh/morning. Course I already tolda you bout that.

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On the edge of a knife. But looking towards the brighter side.   
01:56am 31/07/2005
  Alright thw Low down the Car situation

As of Late

-ABS ( brake system)
-SRS (Second Response system? I believe)
-----Both lights are on.

-It's taking longer and longer to get the car started.

-The CD play just Turned off while I was sitting at a red light.

- EVERYTHING Electronic in the Car is dimming EXTREMELY

-Car Random bursts of Acceleration / Engine power While Driving or Parked and running

-=NEEDS IMMEDIATE ATTENTION=-

I'm going to go with the whole get a new battery idea.


And HA!! YOU CAN'T ENTIRELY BLAME THIS SITUATION MY DRIVING!!!!

So I go to get new battery when I wake up.



And as to Life. Living pretty well right now.
 
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I'm just not your Mr. Wonderful.   
03:21pm 30/07/2005
 
mood: refreshed
ok look not writing shit bout you.

And you say you didn't say any bad shit about in your journal. How bout the burning Everything about me in a bonfire?

Hell at least I keep shit that will remind me of you. I'm not THAT big of an ass.

killersheep12345: okay, so if you want your shirts you should say something, cause otherwise i'm buring them
Spike TheSlowOne: oh well burn em but the black ones cool so I'd say keep that for yer self
killersheep12345: hmmm, no, i'm burning it
Spike TheSlowOne: Ah ok

Spike TheSlowOne: Well get it out yer system.
Spike TheSlowOne: You'll feel better
killersheep12345: oh, i got it out of my system after burning the pictures i had printed out of you during the school year, and the little writing on random pages in my notebook, and the few shepard pratt papers

Hello? EXCESSIVE ANYONE?

But hey. You will get over it. Or you can be the pyscho bitch like I said you were and Keep this thing going.


I mean if you are you ANGRY with me why would you be reading this? SERIOUSLY.

I mean your like a ghost constantly trying to haunt me. I mean the whole you want to Kill Janet thing? MORE EXCESSIVENESS

If not that Possesiveness.

Ya see you said you have problems letting go?

Well guess what. This is your lil nudge to getting over me.

This Anger I have made you have is an Assist to help you get over me. Now in my sick lil mind it works. I mean, your removing any evidence I was ever in your life. Wiping me from your mind. and filling you with hate.

Your wanting to be with me? Has now become you wanting me away. It's no longer an issue. Being too attached.



I mean once we are apart we will be happier. Or at least I will be. You'll probably be going on bout you still hate me and such.

Nore more Me getting Angry at you for no good reason. No more Sex. Hell you were ruining it by wanting it all the time. The Desert to Water thing. It's better when you savor it. Not the whole begging thing. And don't Deny that shit. You're whole Inoccent face thing? Wimpering?

...


This is not exactly a frontal assault on you Piff.


This is MY explanation.

But why do I have the feeling you shall retaliate?


OH YEAH. PS. That whole You and Sara Baker thing? That was just a misunderstanding on my part. Okay?









Oh and More.

killersheep12345: yeah, you're the one who can't even kill yourself right

What, you want to show me how? I mean really I've already got that shit from alice. But she was drunk. Things are different while drunk. Say things we don't mean and all that Jazz. But hell thats Better now.

I mean I'd like to say that was a low blow but... eh.. I don't need to say it.
 
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No more Burdens no more lies. It's all out in the open   
09:15am 30/07/2005
  OMG BEST NIGHT EVER!!!! Between brownie fights, Drunk people. Aimlessly Driving around. And over all joy and Giddyness. It fucking rocked!

Here. this is the edited version so I don't have to hear anymore crap from her.

Other things that Happened tonight. Victor learned some lessons in driving from me. Like ... not to Press the gas while Holding down the Break... Ouchies. You'll get better man. Just more practice.

Oh and Sorry for you being in the trunk so often..

Alright, People in the Car for the rest of the night / morning. Martin , Josh , Victor and Janet (still can't remember how to spell her name lol) So were drivin round Chilling.

And I'm thinkin lest do something different. So we all Drive down to the Inner Harbor (Fells Point) to watch the sun rise. EXCELLENT!!! Then went to Jimmys Diner type thing and got Breakfast.

Man we're all sleep deprived. lol.

and as soon as I get home my dad is like. Mow the lawn and I'm like.... Only if i get to sleep till lke 5 or somethin.


Oh yeah other stuff happened in Ellicot City But I'm too lazy to type anymore. Stuff involving Muscle's Punk Rock Kids Beer annnd... Hanging out.


Oh yeah and Stuff is wrong with my car but it was worth it.


OMG B E A Utifle Night.
 
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